This year's been a lot of turmoil for me in the friendship department. No less than five close friends moved away. I've experienced a sense of loneliness for the first time in my life as I feel like my sense of family is gone.
Two months ago, while doing karaoke with some drinking buddies, I made a new friend. Right away, we hit it off, sang a ton of songs together, went out to a few other spots, rode the train home together at 4am (he's in my neighborhood).
He's taken to me quickly and after only a handful of times hanging out, he wants to share a birthday celebration and plan Halloween together. (Our birthdays are in December, so it's pretty eager of him to even think that far ahead).
Anyway, he's so attractive. And gentle. And sweet. And sensitive. And blah blah fucking blah. I started to think about him at night as I slept days ago, and then asked myself: What the effing FUCK? How is this possible?
For my entire life, the vast majority of my male friends have been straight. All of them kind and accepting towards me, sensitive artist types that I relate to. Some of them insanely attractive to the point of being modelesque. But no matter how many great things they had going on physically or how much I loved them and they loved me (as a friend), I've never once developed feelings of this nature for any of them.
But with this new guy, I'm laying up at night dreaming of how great it would be to kiss or hold him. Or bite his sexy, succulent ass. Out of nowhere. Never in my life has this happened and it's totally throwing me for a loop.
Oh and a quick disclaimer: This thread isn't me asking for tips on how to "convert" him or anything childish like that. I don't plan on acting on these thoughts. I'm just amazed that they even exist.
Two months ago, while doing karaoke with some drinking buddies, I made a new friend. Right away, we hit it off, sang a ton of songs together, went out to a few other spots, rode the train home together at 4am (he's in my neighborhood).
He's taken to me quickly and after only a handful of times hanging out, he wants to share a birthday celebration and plan Halloween together. (Our birthdays are in December, so it's pretty eager of him to even think that far ahead).
Anyway, he's so attractive. And gentle. And sweet. And sensitive. And blah blah fucking blah. I started to think about him at night as I slept days ago, and then asked myself: What the effing FUCK? How is this possible?
For my entire life, the vast majority of my male friends have been straight. All of them kind and accepting towards me, sensitive artist types that I relate to. Some of them insanely attractive to the point of being modelesque. But no matter how many great things they had going on physically or how much I loved them and they loved me (as a friend), I've never once developed feelings of this nature for any of them.
But with this new guy, I'm laying up at night dreaming of how great it would be to kiss or hold him. Or bite his sexy, succulent ass. Out of nowhere. Never in my life has this happened and it's totally throwing me for a loop.
Oh and a quick disclaimer: This thread isn't me asking for tips on how to "convert" him or anything childish like that. I don't plan on acting on these thoughts. I'm just amazed that they even exist.