Ok, I live in a small (both population and mentality wise) conservative town. I've met plenty of guys in my adult life. I've found many of them attractive and had some hot sex. I've gone on dates and most of them have been ok but I've only dated 3-4 guys in the past 6 years, and they never went too far. They were mainly nice guys tho.
Then a few weeks ago I met a guy I had amazing chemistry with. I can't even begin to describe the things it made me feel. There was a mutual attraction and interest. We did kiss, but it was tender and loving as apposed to just lust. He wanted to wait to mess around and I was completely content to make out like that for months, that how amazing it was. He was very caring, and would even ask if he could put his hands on me. Who does that anymore?? He made me not care about trying to impress him. I've been going to the gym a lot lately, partially to help attract a possible partner; and while he didn't make me want to become a couch potato, he made me not care as much about trying to show off. I started having feelings quickly because of this amazingly sweet connection we had from the get go. I was looking forward to dating and loving him as best as I could. I felt whole when I thought about loving him, and I really was looking forward to loving him as much as I could.
I came on too strong tho to make a long story short, and now he's not responding to me. I didn't do anything bad, and I even wrote a love letter, which was very honest, and I would say, flattering. Coming from my standpoint, this is the first time this has happened to me in my adult life. I was actually in love, not lust or just going out with some random person. I kissed him because of who I was kissing, I wouldn't want to kiss any other random guy, no matter how cute they might be. I have never felt that way before, and I know he liked me too, he just wanted to let things flow naturally. I am kinda devastated since this is the first time I've ever felt this way, and now he's disappeared into thin air. I'll be 30 next year, and I REFUSE to wait another 10 years to find love. I know that's not something you can plan, but there are many couples madly in love much younger than I. I don't want to waste my years alone or just having casual sex. I am pretty devastated he didn't reflect my feelings. To be honest he deleted his dating app and I'm pretty sure he's been looking me up on Facebook, so I know he's struggling as well, somehow.
I love this man, we haven't even known each other a month, so I really should've played my cards closer to my chest, but I love him. Or at least I could if he would allow it. It was going to well at the beginning, in fact he wanted to hang out so much it almost seemed excessive at first. I know no one on here can do anything, and I'm just venting, but I want him back. I think he mistook my feelings for desperation, and I think things would be very different right now if I had only played it cool.
I can't go on other dates right now yet, because I'd rather be with him. But if I don't hear anything back soon I may think about moving. Sounds silly to move for love, but like I said, this is the first time I've truly started to love a guy. I am not waiting another 10 years in this place for that to maybe happen in this cess pool, again. :/
Then a few weeks ago I met a guy I had amazing chemistry with. I can't even begin to describe the things it made me feel. There was a mutual attraction and interest. We did kiss, but it was tender and loving as apposed to just lust. He wanted to wait to mess around and I was completely content to make out like that for months, that how amazing it was. He was very caring, and would even ask if he could put his hands on me. Who does that anymore?? He made me not care about trying to impress him. I've been going to the gym a lot lately, partially to help attract a possible partner; and while he didn't make me want to become a couch potato, he made me not care as much about trying to show off. I started having feelings quickly because of this amazingly sweet connection we had from the get go. I was looking forward to dating and loving him as best as I could. I felt whole when I thought about loving him, and I really was looking forward to loving him as much as I could.
I came on too strong tho to make a long story short, and now he's not responding to me. I didn't do anything bad, and I even wrote a love letter, which was very honest, and I would say, flattering. Coming from my standpoint, this is the first time this has happened to me in my adult life. I was actually in love, not lust or just going out with some random person. I kissed him because of who I was kissing, I wouldn't want to kiss any other random guy, no matter how cute they might be. I have never felt that way before, and I know he liked me too, he just wanted to let things flow naturally. I am kinda devastated since this is the first time I've ever felt this way, and now he's disappeared into thin air. I'll be 30 next year, and I REFUSE to wait another 10 years to find love. I know that's not something you can plan, but there are many couples madly in love much younger than I. I don't want to waste my years alone or just having casual sex. I am pretty devastated he didn't reflect my feelings. To be honest he deleted his dating app and I'm pretty sure he's been looking me up on Facebook, so I know he's struggling as well, somehow.
I love this man, we haven't even known each other a month, so I really should've played my cards closer to my chest, but I love him. Or at least I could if he would allow it. It was going to well at the beginning, in fact he wanted to hang out so much it almost seemed excessive at first. I know no one on here can do anything, and I'm just venting, but I want him back. I think he mistook my feelings for desperation, and I think things would be very different right now if I had only played it cool.
I can't go on other dates right now yet, because I'd rather be with him. But if I don't hear anything back soon I may think about moving. Sounds silly to move for love, but like I said, this is the first time I've truly started to love a guy. I am not waiting another 10 years in this place for that to maybe happen in this cess pool, again. :/