I dont really know how to go about these thoughts I've been having. I've been in a very serious relationship with a girl that I love for over 3 years now. We purchased a house last year because we were that serious and have lived together for 2 years. I've always loved her and can't see myself without her in my life. However lately I have had no sexual attraction to her what so ever. Sex has never been an issue between us until lately. I have always had an attraction to men but told myself it was a phase and I would get over it. That feeling has never gone away. I have never been with a man at all therefore never really identified myself as bisexual. I do watch a lot of gay porn when she's not around to beat off. I haven't masturbated lately to see if that would help my sex drive with her. It hasn't... We haven't had sex in over a month now. I can't see myself cheating on her, especially with a guy but I don't know how else to figure it out. It's not an option for us to take a break or break up unless its going to be for good. I love her with all my heart and dont want to lose her or this life we started together. I just also dont know how to get the sexual attraction back...
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