I have known this for awhile and have had people tell me, even though I didn't need them to tell me to know I do. I think I get my sex addiction from my father, who was fixated on sex after my parents divorced and slept around with several woman. I haven't had sex in over 4 months and have been good about not giving in to the urge to hook up, although I really feel the need to suck dick, eat ass and get pounded sometimes because I like it. My best friend is upset because I talk about sex a lot, even though we talk about anything and everything else, but the topic of sex comes up a lot. He just got upset at me for saying I wish I could do sexual things to him, even though I am well aware we are just good friends and might never do it, but I just can't help it sometimes because I feel strongly about him and for him. I told him it's not fair that other "friends" of his get to flirt with him and somehow it's a sin when I try to flirt with him. I really do understand him, but I just hate being the last on his list. He's really the only guy I feel sexual feelings towards as well as romantic ones but he doesn't give me a chance either way. He's a great friend, but I just have the urge to go that extra mile, you know? Maybe I'm just a fool for feeling that way, and he makes me feel guilty for it. I'm one who does all the work during sex, as I don't like to be touched or anything, except penetrated. I don't think I really need counseling, as for one, it'd humiliate me to admit that to a complete stranger, although a licensed medical personnel, and I am in control as to what I do and not doing anything sexual, it's just the thoughts that get me in trouble sometimes. Sex is not a priority in my life and I do other things with my life besides sex. It just pops up here and there and makes me want sex, then it goes away until whenever it wants to come back and make me feel horny.
Food is my other addiction. It started when I was a kid and people thought I was too skinny, so I started eating more until it became to the point where I was obese and was that way throughout my teen years and part of my adult life. I eat to live, but I also eat when I am depressed, stressed, bored or aroused sexually. I have done better in recent years with smaller portions and not eating a load like I did when I was a teen, but it's still not enough because I am still gaining weight and am overweight again for the first time in 6 years. I usually sleep so I don't get the urge to eat, even when I need to eat. It's hard to ignore that signal my brain gives me to eat when I know I will eat a lot of something and I try to fight it, sometimes winning. It's been hard to exercise because of lack of sleep and sleeping during the day, plus the weather has been too humid or too rainy. I have been eating some things that aren't so good for your weight, like yogurt with honey, but that's the only thing I've been eating that would make me gain weight, and I don't even get yogurt often. I want to exercise with weights or doing something to move my muscles. However, the acid reflux I have plus the wrap from a prior hernia repair get in the way of that, as I have damaged it before. I really want to eat better and lose weight, but don't know how at this rate. I have tried taking long walks, but can't get my metabolism to make me lose pounds.
I feel like a male Blanche Devereaux: men, sex and food.
Food is my other addiction. It started when I was a kid and people thought I was too skinny, so I started eating more until it became to the point where I was obese and was that way throughout my teen years and part of my adult life. I eat to live, but I also eat when I am depressed, stressed, bored or aroused sexually. I have done better in recent years with smaller portions and not eating a load like I did when I was a teen, but it's still not enough because I am still gaining weight and am overweight again for the first time in 6 years. I usually sleep so I don't get the urge to eat, even when I need to eat. It's hard to ignore that signal my brain gives me to eat when I know I will eat a lot of something and I try to fight it, sometimes winning. It's been hard to exercise because of lack of sleep and sleeping during the day, plus the weather has been too humid or too rainy. I have been eating some things that aren't so good for your weight, like yogurt with honey, but that's the only thing I've been eating that would make me gain weight, and I don't even get yogurt often. I want to exercise with weights or doing something to move my muscles. However, the acid reflux I have plus the wrap from a prior hernia repair get in the way of that, as I have damaged it before. I really want to eat better and lose weight, but don't know how at this rate. I have tried taking long walks, but can't get my metabolism to make me lose pounds.
I feel like a male Blanche Devereaux: men, sex and food.
